Inspiration

"It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; It is because we do not dare that they are difficult."

I was online researching some quotes ... something I tend to do every now and then ... I wasn't quite sure whether it was just a quote I was looking for or maybe perhaps a speck of inspiration. My life has been feeling so ... stale. No progress has been made since the last time I stopped and looked at the way things are going. I'm not in school today, I didn't go because honestly speaking I couldn't be bothered to go. Is this what it has come to? Change is difficult, yet when I read that quote I felt like I was being a bit of a hypocrite because I always advise my friends to take risks because life doesn't just improve on its own and hell yes I'm right about that yet I never seem to find a way to get up off of my ass and do something about it. WHY? I came to a conclusion. I'm scared. Terrified. As soon as I'm confronted with a problem of any sort I walk out. I don't try to settle it simply because I don't like facing problems in worry that perhaps trying to solve it will end up with me being disappointed or hurt. But don't we all feel that way? Aren't we all afraid of disappointment? Change isn't easy but it's not difficult either. I'll leave you to linger on that thought while I go soak in my own confusion.

Oola! Long time no talk!

Hello <3
Madree lesh I didn't post in a long time! Yala it's not like I have a million devoted fans out there ;p il mohem, i got my report and it was KICK ASS XD!! il 7imdellah i'm glad <3 i got lucky one more time apparently :) w ba3ad sheno? I'm just relaxing, makoo exams bas I stay after school till 6 for my drama rehearsals :( ohwa 9ij il drama is AMAZING <3 bas haman ta3ab ya3nee :) yala ma 3alaih, i'm actually in a good mood ... even though I still didn't decide anything about my future ... yala 5aleeha 3ala allah!

Just Chillin'.

Hey hey! Ok, I'm pretty much relaxed today, I'm liking that actually. Still confused about my future though but hopefully that'll work out eventually...if it doesn't...well, I don't want to think about that really! I don't feel like a screw-up right now which is good news. But, on the down side, I'm getting my results sheet tomorrow. Everyone has high expectations for me but I don't feel like I lived up to them, you know? I hate being pressure simply because I do not handle pressure well! Instead of succeeding I simply succumb to pressure and eventually fail! Of course, that hasn't happened with any of my finals but I have a bad feeling about tomorrow :(. I don't know what my exam results are and frankly I don't want to know! Honestly, we take exams so that TEACHERS know how we're doing in their classes, us knowing is just what some consider to be a perk. Right now, this isn't a perk. I don't want to know anything about my exams. I just want to take that results sheet and throw it somewhere far away where no one can find it except really small people who will burn it in a fire because they need heat because they need to survive! That way, by throwing away my results sheet, I would have provided unfortunate people with a surviving technique...see how generous that can be, instead my parents want to see that results sheet and congratulate me if I did well or pin the blame on my friends if I didn't do so well, either way none of the credit ever goes to me. Even if I did do well they'll probably assume I got lucky. How do I know this? You might wonder. Well, let's see, I've been doing well for the past 10 years and of course this entire time I was getting lucky, I hardly receive any praise which is why I'm not so tempted to bother doing well this term. I'm sick of it. What's the point if I don't even know what I'm doing? Oh damn, I'm being sad and gloomy all over again so I might as well stop. Thanks for taking the time to read this...you must have been incredibly bored! XD

So Much Fun!

Yes, a new post but with POSITIVITY :D! Today was SO MUCH FUNNNNNN!! I went out with my close friends, to this mini-party we were having for my best friend! We had a WONDERFUL time and took lots of crazy pictures! All the Kuwaitis out there, if you haven't tried Slider Station, then get your asses off your computer's chair and GO THERE NOW! I'm giving it like free advertising I know but it's seriously the HOTTEST SPOT IN TOWN! Seriously, go, now. XD

Confused

Ok, I know what you're thinking, can't this girl ever be happy? Does everything always have to be depressing with her? Sadly, yes! I'm graduating in a few months and I have NO idea on what I want to be and I don't even know what I'm going to major in! I'm so CONFUSED (hence the title "Confused"). God, I really don't know what to do...ideas..anyone?

Almost Done.

Well, my exams are almost over, that's a relief, except I've been sick this entire weekend! I could swear that I can't get by an entire month without being sick, it's fucked up. Anyways...did I mention that chances are I messed up in my exams too? Well if I didn't here goes, chances are I messed up in my exams too! My mum is probably going to blame it on me going out with my friends too much when really my friends have nothing to do it ... if I messed up in my exams, it's MY fault, not anybody else's, I'm the idiot, not my friends.

Messed Up

So basically I'm confused on many levels. My exams are starting in two days, I studied but only for a bit, I can never get myself motivated enough for studies. I just can't focus what with all the drama that's happening in my life. I swear my life would make the perfect soap opera. This holiday has been horrible, simply horrible. Although I went out and had a lot of good times, bad things were happening too. My friends were going through some problems and they needed my help, I had problems of my own and god, it's just been so shitty! I am in no mood for exams and I feel like crap. Everything has been feeling that way lately. My holiday started off with me being literally depressed. Afterwards, things just kept getting worse and worse and now they reached a level where I feel like I'm going to explode. I'm not all doom and gloom though, I'm just going through a rough time :(