Just Chillin'.

Hey hey! Ok, I'm pretty much relaxed today, I'm liking that actually. Still confused about my future though but hopefully that'll work out eventually...if it doesn't...well, I don't want to think about that really! I don't feel like a screw-up right now which is good news. But, on the down side, I'm getting my results sheet tomorrow. Everyone has high expectations for me but I don't feel like I lived up to them, you know? I hate being pressure simply because I do not handle pressure well! Instead of succeeding I simply succumb to pressure and eventually fail! Of course, that hasn't happened with any of my finals but I have a bad feeling about tomorrow :(. I don't know what my exam results are and frankly I don't want to know! Honestly, we take exams so that TEACHERS know how we're doing in their classes, us knowing is just what some consider to be a perk. Right now, this isn't a perk. I don't want to know anything about my exams. I just want to take that results sheet and throw it somewhere far away where no one can find it except really small people who will burn it in a fire because they need heat because they need to survive! That way, by throwing away my results sheet, I would have provided unfortunate people with a surviving technique...see how generous that can be, instead my parents want to see that results sheet and congratulate me if I did well or pin the blame on my friends if I didn't do so well, either way none of the credit ever goes to me. Even if I did do well they'll probably assume I got lucky. How do I know this? You might wonder. Well, let's see, I've been doing well for the past 10 years and of course this entire time I was getting lucky, I hardly receive any praise which is why I'm not so tempted to bother doing well this term. I'm sick of it. What's the point if I don't even know what I'm doing? Oh damn, I'm being sad and gloomy all over again so I might as well stop. Thanks for taking the time to read this...you must have been incredibly bored! XD